Vicissitudes!

Past week's been a bit melodramatic for me. I haven't been perturbed as much as I know I can be. On the other hand, I have been pondering over things which I really dont have any clue about. You might not understand how unruly and peevish I can get. Not that, I show this frustration off or something, this is something I just enjoy within myself. It is more like claustrophobic for me which i totally cherish sometimes. And this by in no way means, am not normal. Infact, I consider myself to be normal than most of the other guys and I wouldnt really give a damn to what you must be thinking about this self-conceited opinion of mine. Damn, what an insane hypocritical cribber I am. Or maybe am not!

It is time I apologize for not commenting on blogs offlate. I've become so dormant that I dont feel like reading blogs anymore. I wonder why would anyone for that matter read mine either? It is like, if I dont get a reply on something I comment, I am enraged. And, here I am not replying to comments and visiting blogs since ages now. Why do you guys care and drop by my blog?

Ever since, I left college some 7 days back, things have moved on so fast that I have no idea where I've landed myself after the exam. I travelled a lot. I couldnt hang out much. As a result, going to mumbai and delhi was like taking a stroll in this fucked up lawn outside my hostel room. Not a stroll exactly, maybe sitting in some vehicle and circling this lawn for days continuously. I had planned to meet some blogger friends in delhi as well as in mumbai. But, I dont know, I never called anyone. It is amazin and perplexing to see myself so focussed on some shitty exam which doesnt even have a proper criteria or surity of getting admissions done.

Now, that I reached college some 3 days before, things have been okay-ish. Friends have been congratulating me over the score with most of them not knowing anything about it. Some of them dont even know the score. It is just that I was so famous and all for giving this oh-so-show-off-an-exam and everybody knew about it. I am so fuckin embarassed by all this.

The crunch time of applying to the unversities has already started. I can feel the pressure. Scholarship is something that is evading me like hell. My counsellor has also not been that considerate towards me. I write her looong mails asking her questions and she just manages to reply back in single sentences or words maybe like "OK" or "Below ones are good". I mean, WTF? I paid 25 grands and it seems it is all down the drain.

Disclaimer: Read further under parental guidance and if you are a parent already, try understanding the problem that I am facing.



It is time for my skin to start behaving weird now. I hope everybody knows where the skin ointment Zole-F is applied generally. If you don't, google it. If you don't get still, I am talking about the region between my thighs and the THING. The skin has started shedding and by shedding I mean, it is indeed starting to peel off. I am generally clean with extra special care taken for all the sensitive regions of my body. But then, I dont know wht is happening. I have this sporadic itching sessions at any goddamn hour of the day. I dont have an itch guard or something. I apply vicks to the region and it feels like somebody's burning my hair off. Spoooky tis!

Damn, this post was meant to be written over days. But, I just feel I should abruptly end it here because I suddenly feel so vulnerable and lost about every damn thing in this world now. I am guiltyyyyy to the core and sorry for this spontaneous mood change, but I guess this is what I am.

The developments shall continue...