You can see through my fake smiles
I don’t hold it so well cause
It shows through my eyes
I just can’t make you happy
When I clearly am not feeling you
The way I would like to.
In short, I don’t like you
And I find it hard to pretend that I do
That’s when my face tells you a story
A story of how you test my all and make me
Just wanna grimace until you are gone
Isn’t this bad guys..? * pouts I just can’t pretend when people clearly gets on my nerves. Whatever happened to the tolerant and loving girl I know. I think I have been bitten pretty bad from past experiences that now all I wanna do is bite back. And somehow I find that very sad. Cause it makes me into this really ugly person inside. I personally feel that’s pretty unhealthy. You know like this person who pulls all her defenses up for fear that someone might just bite her bum. The strong faced individual. The woman who conquers and all that drama. But at the end of the day, looking within I realized that the beauty lies in being that individual who isn’t too hard faced and tough. And that’s just what I have turned into. Xena with all the drama. The difference is. I am just a fake Xena. It makes me unhappy being all defensive, sensitive all the time. Every little thing seems to activate my ‘snap’ button that challenges me to go Snappety snap snap! Not healthy at all sweethearts. Worse still, you tend to be really unhappy with people when at times, all you need is to shut up. I miss that whole beautiful person who lives within me. I miss ‘God’ in me.
There is also that statement that underlies within me on how missing something won’t produce anything. But doing something about it would. I am beginning to think…
To start doing something is an answer to it but to actually do something is a challenge that produce many good things. Yet often we ignore the very thing that we should be doing which in turn makes us fools to our own folly.
Vengence never pay good things. And I seem to be matching that very thing. How do I undo it? By spelling my words right and starting back at one. A new beginning.
I had a cousin once told me the importance of addressing a problem of the past instead of leaving it to fade away on its count. There is always a build up if something is not addressed fast. It will turn ya into a fake Xena or perhaps another drama that might match you up.
Now with my ending line. I will Overcome. And I am beginning at No. 1. God is involved.
I don’t hold it so well cause
It shows through my eyes
I just can’t make you happy
When I clearly am not feeling you
The way I would like to.
In short, I don’t like you
And I find it hard to pretend that I do
That’s when my face tells you a story
A story of how you test my all and make me
Just wanna grimace until you are gone
Isn’t this bad guys..? * pouts I just can’t pretend when people clearly gets on my nerves. Whatever happened to the tolerant and loving girl I know. I think I have been bitten pretty bad from past experiences that now all I wanna do is bite back. And somehow I find that very sad. Cause it makes me into this really ugly person inside. I personally feel that’s pretty unhealthy. You know like this person who pulls all her defenses up for fear that someone might just bite her bum. The strong faced individual. The woman who conquers and all that drama. But at the end of the day, looking within I realized that the beauty lies in being that individual who isn’t too hard faced and tough. And that’s just what I have turned into. Xena with all the drama. The difference is. I am just a fake Xena. It makes me unhappy being all defensive, sensitive all the time. Every little thing seems to activate my ‘snap’ button that challenges me to go Snappety snap snap! Not healthy at all sweethearts. Worse still, you tend to be really unhappy with people when at times, all you need is to shut up. I miss that whole beautiful person who lives within me. I miss ‘God’ in me.
There is also that statement that underlies within me on how missing something won’t produce anything. But doing something about it would. I am beginning to think…
To start doing something is an answer to it but to actually do something is a challenge that produce many good things. Yet often we ignore the very thing that we should be doing which in turn makes us fools to our own folly.
Vengence never pay good things. And I seem to be matching that very thing. How do I undo it? By spelling my words right and starting back at one. A new beginning.
I had a cousin once told me the importance of addressing a problem of the past instead of leaving it to fade away on its count. There is always a build up if something is not addressed fast. It will turn ya into a fake Xena or perhaps another drama that might match you up.
Now with my ending line. I will Overcome. And I am beginning at No. 1. God is involved.
9 Flavours:
WOW Amy from where d u come up with suich brilliant thoughts! I know ur this brilliant thinker but the way u write is brilliant too. U put it across with zeal.
Ur no fake Xena tho...ur a REAL one.
Just cos u dun manage to hide ur true feelings, that doesnt make u an ugly person Amy. I'd prefer it if u show me real emotions than hide it away.
**I had a cousin once told me the importance of addressing a problem of the past instead of leaving it to fade away on its count. There is always a build up if something is not addressed fast.
I totally agree! I hv some past issues that I must come to temns with too...never leave it to fade away cos then it really wont.
**Now with my ending line. I will Overcome. And I am beginning at No. 1. God is involved.
WOW so profound! I believe thats a real good start AMY!
HUGGGGGGGGGGZ!
Keshi.
**such
**terms
lolz sorry abt the MANY typos!
Keshi.
Ahoy!
Loved the post and the song.
Hi,Amy(May I use that name,or,u prefer Sweet SC?*smile*).It's good that you're so clear in your thoughts- if someone gets on your nerves,say it.:)I'm the same,and,sometimes,people might not appreciate it,but,eventually,they understand.:)
Hey,but,biting back is not the solution,surely,is not a solution,na?Only leads to more nastiness,which we don't need.
*To start doing something is an answer to it but to actually do something is a challenge that produce many good things. *..that's one nice statement-it's so good to see that you have solutions to most of your problems-just need to activate the antennae and go forth.:)Cheers and have a great day.
I love the way you put your thoughts down , really clear and concise. I think it is good that you address the problem rather than hold it all in.I think you are not human if you cannot show your feelings.
i think i agree with the fact that sometimes we just get sick of everything. We are hurt so much that all we want to do is hurt others so that they can feel the pain.
But, just remember that you are better than them and you have every ability to be a much better person.
Keshi: Hello Keshi.:)
***Just cos u dun manage to hide ur true feelings, that doesnt make u an ugly person Amy. I'd prefer it if u show me real emotions than hide it away.
Thats really encouraging Sweets.:))
Thank You
and hey i am cool abt da typos.;)
Cheeries!:D
Kulpreet: Happy to heart that!:D
Amit: I guess most have started calling me Amy. Guess i am cool with it.:)
***just need to activate the antennae and go forth.:)
You said the right words Amit. Thank you.
Cheers!:D
Starry Nights: Thanks Starry.:) Thats really encouraging.
Cheeries!:D
Raaji: Hello Raaji.:)Thanks for that wonderful advice lady.;)
Cheeries all! Have a good day!;)
thank you for stopping by
if you love coffee then you should read this:
http://raajii.blogspot.com/2007/07/confessions-of-coffe-lover.html
:)
Raaji: hey gurl! tat was a flash! Woot!:D
cool will check it..;D
Thanks!:D
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