Re-Muneration

Standing there I looked into the mirror of my own reflection. I am keeping in mind to look into my own mirror before I decide to take a peek into another’s mirror. Failing to see my own errors, condition and person I looked into another’s mirror. Failing to see the video of my own actions, I impose a finger on another’s mirror hurting their own person. Nursing a hurt within my heart I felt like I had a right to cause cracks to come alive. As much as I noticed the arising stink of my own person, I decided to throw darts at the other person. Cause I felt I had a right to give them the same type of medicine they once fed me. Yet now that I have simmered and start to embrace the beautiful smiles of people, life and my person. I saw how my rashness, selfishness, defensiveness has hurt another’s mirror. My retaliation proved no gain.

To kiss and make up seems like the wonderful thing once you simmer down and saw the crack evident in your own grounds. Yet the damage has been done. The other party hides, retaliates and gives you the eye. They have been pierced. An impression hasbeen created and judgement is nearly placed. The other mirror has been hurt by my very own mirror due to my own foolishness and selfishness. For me to seek a reconciliation right now is definitely a challenge to just taste my own medicine. The same arrow that was darted towards them bounce back just to pierce my own bum. Reminds me of the statement, “ what goes around comes around.”Now, I am standing on this ground realizing the damage I have done. To demand forgiveness, a reconciliation and some form of gentleness just seems like an illusion. Hurt does really goes in a cycle I realise. It repeats after another hurt varying from individuals of course.

As much as its easy to feel downcast and beat myself up for what I’ve done . I chose not to linger. I’ve done what I’ve done. I have hurt someone failing to get pass my own person. That does not mean I am giving up the idea of reconciliation or smiles. I just can’t allow my past errors to get the better of me and to put stop the new person that has grown out of my own hurts. I will just keep pressing on to reconcile with a instinct for a better time. If all else, fails. I can’t sit and brood and beg for someone to turn his/her head to my side. I just have to say goodbye keeping in mind of what I’ve done and to be careful to not look into another’s mirror before mine. I am seeing the same reflection in their mirror that I failed to look into my own mirror at that time. A certain understanding wraps my mind. The words, “ I am sorry” could really mean so much to someone. Yet there is a time. Not everyone could receive it when their eyes don’t want to look your way right now.

I reconcile with the this lesson that I learnt just. It just shows how everyone does not deserve another’s tantrums. Yet again we are humans. But that doesn’t really give us an excuse does it? Perhaps when we are unaware of our own reflection at that particular time. No one wants to look at their stinky person and we often choose a prey to devour in unconciousness. Maybe not everyone. But perhaps this is the cycle of life that many of us rode on many times. I realized the importance of looking into my own mirror before looking into another’s one. Yet at times, rebellion,pride and what-Nots were present.

In short, I’ve learnt a lesson and saw through my circumstances. Despite the few errors, I don’t see a moment that I should name impossible just cause its pretty hard right now. There will come a time, a moment where all will be done. For now, I should just keep a positive mind and move on with my life.

Cheers

Have a good week everyone!