Its hard to keep it real when things gets pretty overwhelming. When the feeling is irresistibly good and captivating. Its just hard to get real. Hehehe.. all I wanna do is giggle in silly goofy laughters and smile like a nut who has been struck by thunder but is just totally numb to the startle.. Hehehe..thats the way I am kinda feeling right now. Trying to feel/read something tangible to just get back on my feet. There is an overwheleming joy within. -grinz- catch me baby!! Lol!
Aites! Back to the real thing.;)
I guess what I described above is just one aspect of “keeping it real”. There is another aspect that I thought was pretty important. Got the inspiration while having a discussion with a bunch of mates. It was a fun night. Everyone shared their thoughts. Some shoot their honest comments on others. And at the end of the day everyone wrapped up with a smile. It was a fruitfull discussion that evoked this thought within me about always remembering to “keep it real”.
There are times we tend to forget that we can be weak, fall, make mistakes and be just downright clueless or doubtful about situations, our abilities and life itself. We tend to feel that we are not allowed to feel this way, its bad, shameful and just plain embarrassing for ourselves, to the people who thinks well of us etc. Thus, being hard on ourselves and placing judgements on others who give into their emotions as weak & unimpressive..
I guess there is a way to ‘keep things real’ on both sides of the coin. There are times when life gets too good that we lose sight of the mishaps, the past journeys of how we could fall so bad and feel our hearts actually crack. It just slips out of our mind. And therefore find ourselves not understanding another individual’s plight or journey. Its normal I guess. I went through that before. But placing a judgement and tag upon that person on your own perceptions of things is not appealing. Cause honestly, the person will not buy it cause they juz can’t see it. But than again, there are moments when speaking the truth is just far more better than your own perceptions of things. Does this give the person a right to wallow down the drain? I say not!
Guess everyone has a way of dealing with things. And some just take the road way down than question their living. It happens. I mean lets get real. Is there a moment in your life where you just wish u were dead? Like death is the best answer to taste cause of the pain? Yeah sure thing. I went through that honestly. I was like “oh Jeez, God just let me die!” Esp when you don’t understand things, it gets complicating and horribly painful. But than again the question is, “ DO I reall Want to die?”
I tell you the honest truth. Nopez. I was actually freaked out by the idea of even trying to be god by taking my own life. I would just cry so hard the night before and wish/pray in my heart that I would be found dead. Meaning just sleeping into death. And before I know it. God just has better plans for me. I actually could open my eyes to see the sun peeking its rays at me. I realized, I was not dead! Haha! I Of course at that time, I tot God sure was playing a joke on me. I was a pouty child. Cause I did not want to live but He actually thought I could live. I guess the encouragement I found in it, is the fact that Mr. G up there has got faith and confidence in me getting through it. But I was playing out on Him by asking Him to kill me once and for all instead of taking me for a knife piercing ride. At that time, I did not see the reason for things. The bottom line is, sadness to the point of taking your own life is not a right and wonderful to do. You might think it’s the best thing for you. But than again, think about it. If the person who made you is not taking your breath away and giving up on you. Why are you giving up on yourself thinking this pain is the end of your breath? Don’t you find comfort in the fact, that someone who has the power to life and death actually thinks you can make it through this ache? I do very much. The only thing is I was not able to comprehend than. But after my travel through that little dark land. Remember? I was Ms poutsy, angry kid for not having her wants than. I rebelled.
This is wat I am trying to say. I did not condemn my friend, M who thought that doubting Mr. G means a sense of weakness. A few mates were applaud at him for always saying that he doesn’t have problems like that. They kinda had a short harmless debate that brought him to see that he is a human after all. I am sure he knows he is a human like all of us. You know the whole imperfect thing etc. But sometimes we just fail to grasp the truth of our imperfections and decide that being human is wrong, bad , embarrassing. We always got to lift our heads up and pull our noses feeling that people will respect us. There are moments of griefs when you really need someone by your side to help you see a rainbow after the rain.
Its natural I guess for all of us to put on these various shoes in life. To fall, to pout, to act strong, to fail to see a logic in people’s sad drama and crown them as weakling cause we have already become strong after our own sad dramas. It happens. And sometimes this people are good for the sad souls. To knock some sense. But just don’t demand on them and don’t ridicule them. Share your thoughts but don’t assume things abt them that clashes with your own sets of perception.
It’s a reminder to me,myself and I as well. To keep it real. Too much knowledge & self-righteousness could result in a rigid personality that is always smelling for others wrong areas. We fail to realise often that we are humans. Guess that does not give us a reason to be indulgent. As they balance create a good grade.
Have a good week ahead all.
Cheers!
Aites! Back to the real thing.;)
I guess what I described above is just one aspect of “keeping it real”. There is another aspect that I thought was pretty important. Got the inspiration while having a discussion with a bunch of mates. It was a fun night. Everyone shared their thoughts. Some shoot their honest comments on others. And at the end of the day everyone wrapped up with a smile. It was a fruitfull discussion that evoked this thought within me about always remembering to “keep it real”.
There are times we tend to forget that we can be weak, fall, make mistakes and be just downright clueless or doubtful about situations, our abilities and life itself. We tend to feel that we are not allowed to feel this way, its bad, shameful and just plain embarrassing for ourselves, to the people who thinks well of us etc. Thus, being hard on ourselves and placing judgements on others who give into their emotions as weak & unimpressive..
I guess there is a way to ‘keep things real’ on both sides of the coin. There are times when life gets too good that we lose sight of the mishaps, the past journeys of how we could fall so bad and feel our hearts actually crack. It just slips out of our mind. And therefore find ourselves not understanding another individual’s plight or journey. Its normal I guess. I went through that before. But placing a judgement and tag upon that person on your own perceptions of things is not appealing. Cause honestly, the person will not buy it cause they juz can’t see it. But than again, there are moments when speaking the truth is just far more better than your own perceptions of things. Does this give the person a right to wallow down the drain? I say not!
Guess everyone has a way of dealing with things. And some just take the road way down than question their living. It happens. I mean lets get real. Is there a moment in your life where you just wish u were dead? Like death is the best answer to taste cause of the pain? Yeah sure thing. I went through that honestly. I was like “oh Jeez, God just let me die!” Esp when you don’t understand things, it gets complicating and horribly painful. But than again the question is, “ DO I reall Want to die?”
I tell you the honest truth. Nopez. I was actually freaked out by the idea of even trying to be god by taking my own life. I would just cry so hard the night before and wish/pray in my heart that I would be found dead. Meaning just sleeping into death. And before I know it. God just has better plans for me. I actually could open my eyes to see the sun peeking its rays at me. I realized, I was not dead! Haha! I Of course at that time, I tot God sure was playing a joke on me. I was a pouty child. Cause I did not want to live but He actually thought I could live. I guess the encouragement I found in it, is the fact that Mr. G up there has got faith and confidence in me getting through it. But I was playing out on Him by asking Him to kill me once and for all instead of taking me for a knife piercing ride. At that time, I did not see the reason for things. The bottom line is, sadness to the point of taking your own life is not a right and wonderful to do. You might think it’s the best thing for you. But than again, think about it. If the person who made you is not taking your breath away and giving up on you. Why are you giving up on yourself thinking this pain is the end of your breath? Don’t you find comfort in the fact, that someone who has the power to life and death actually thinks you can make it through this ache? I do very much. The only thing is I was not able to comprehend than. But after my travel through that little dark land. Remember? I was Ms poutsy, angry kid for not having her wants than. I rebelled.
This is wat I am trying to say. I did not condemn my friend, M who thought that doubting Mr. G means a sense of weakness. A few mates were applaud at him for always saying that he doesn’t have problems like that. They kinda had a short harmless debate that brought him to see that he is a human after all. I am sure he knows he is a human like all of us. You know the whole imperfect thing etc. But sometimes we just fail to grasp the truth of our imperfections and decide that being human is wrong, bad , embarrassing. We always got to lift our heads up and pull our noses feeling that people will respect us. There are moments of griefs when you really need someone by your side to help you see a rainbow after the rain.
Its natural I guess for all of us to put on these various shoes in life. To fall, to pout, to act strong, to fail to see a logic in people’s sad drama and crown them as weakling cause we have already become strong after our own sad dramas. It happens. And sometimes this people are good for the sad souls. To knock some sense. But just don’t demand on them and don’t ridicule them. Share your thoughts but don’t assume things abt them that clashes with your own sets of perception.
It’s a reminder to me,myself and I as well. To keep it real. Too much knowledge & self-righteousness could result in a rigid personality that is always smelling for others wrong areas. We fail to realise often that we are humans. Guess that does not give us a reason to be indulgent. As they balance create a good grade.
Have a good week ahead all.
Cheers!