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BLOGGING isn't my ADDICTION ! (Loon Gal)
Sunday, September 9, 2007
My ADDICTION in Life :

*Surprise Surprise* I've never been addicted to anything in life!

The reason behind this could possibly be the fact that am a true Gemini! OK let me explain how this works for me:
A typical Gemini is the one who's motto is : "A rolling stone gathers no moss" ... and the way I would interpret this as is "A busy person can avoid what is undesirable" .. I have never thought of addiction as something which can be considered good/healthy. You might think am closed-minded but then that's how my brain works.
Oh man! this is all so difficult to explain ... but the problem with me is ... I get bored of things/people very soon ... which kinda makes it difficult for me get addicted to things ... yeah I agree I was addicted to chatting a few years ago ... but back then that was the only means for me to be able to communicate and express myself to people ( which again Geminis are good at) when I had no other options...
I have a feeling that I shouldn't have chosen this topic since I have nothing to write ... anyway I think its allowed to write on both the topics ... so ...


How has BLOGGING changed my life ?

DRASTICALLY!!

is the answer.

I don't want to bore you guys with things like ... how I started blogging ... why I started blogging (as a result of boredom)... why I don't blog very frequently anymore ( coz am bored of it now) and what I like to blog about (random things) ...

Apart from the blog most of you know about ... there was another "Personal Blog" I used to write. A blog where I wrote about my life, my friends, my crushes, my life issues, about the little things that make me happy, the naughty me, the dirty me ;), the nasty me, the me - my parents don't wanna know, about my parents - the things that irritated me , their habits which I don't like, what I expect from them, what I am thankful to them for, what I did behind their back, my mistakes which I felt guilty about, etc ...
And this "Personal Blog" was discovered by my mom ... she discovered a completely new ME! It was like I was stripped naked right in front of her eyes. But for this blog she would probably have never known the me she knows now. That was the day .. everything changed. It might sound very petty to you but my life took a drastic turn. The outcome was bad but she had to eventually realise that I had outgrown the shell she had carved for me, and I and my thoughts had become very independent. And basically I had grown up!

I'm still showered with taunts and comments from her ... which is embarrassing and very frustrating at the same time. I can not blame her for anything but neither can I blame myself. I think it was a phase ... and we'll both hopefully get over it soon ( its already been 1.5 yrs and she hasn't forgotten a thing ... neither has she forgiven me for anything)

Apart from this, blogging in general has been a very good experience. I have thankfully not had any bad experiences till now as such. People have been generous and very supportive when I expected them to be. I have discovered where I stand through blogging ... and that I still have a really long way to go. Blogging was yet another platform for me to express myself in the public ... it does scare me at times ... coz you never know how much is too much. At times you get too personal .. to any extent where people can use it against you. (Alright I have become very paranoid over the time) .
In a nutshell, leaving aside whatever I've gone through ... I'm very proud and glad to be a part of the blogosphere!

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BUFer - Łóòň Ġãĺ @ 9/09/2007 03:36:00 PM  | 6 Voices
Never Get Enough, Its The Sweetest Drug(Michelle)
Friday, September 7, 2007

My addictions cannot be shortlisted, so I'll emphasize on my most dominating one.
Everyone has aims in life.You reach them, you don't.Some go all out, some give up.
I've always been addicted to have something to aim for.I love setting certain obstacles for myself
and love testing myself as to how long it takes me to overcome them.It doesn't always have to
be something that I NEED to overcome, its often just the high i get going through all that pain
and finally accomplishing something i set out to.I know it might sound very eccentric, but the minute one thing is accomplished, i set the bar
higher each time and only those that know me really well know what I put myself through.

When I was on my whole diet spree when I had few kgs left to shed, I used to enjoy looking at
my friends stuffing their faces with fatty goodiness and refrain..and they found it SO weird how I put something I would probably sell my soul to eat in front of me, stare at it, but not eat it.

Or how I knew I just had to prove some people wrong when they thought I could never do certain things on my own.It took a lot of hardwork and sleepless nights yes, but the satisfaction I felt when the result was achieved was something I can never explain.

Every success, got me drawn further, got me addicted to being more determined and every
failure just made me push myself one step further till I got it right.
A couple of years back I wasn't half as determined as I was now.Yes, certain events in my life
did trigger this unusual need to put myself through hell to achieve things I don't even require but its made me a stronger person and the look on peoples faces that never did believe in you is
quite worth it :-)

Theres a lot I have to achieve as yet, there are a lot of people I have to prove myself to and you
know what? Despite doing things I would never imagine sometime back, I still have to prove a lot of things to myself.This time, it will take more determination and a hell lot of time!
I've never been patient.But surprisingly, slow and steady did the trick.

Determination gets me on a high.I love being addicted to think that nothing is ever
impossible.I'm addicted to pushing myself more and more even if you think you can't go
further.Because when you achieve it, irrespective of whether you wanted it in the first place or
not, is ecstasy.

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BUFer - Michelle @ 9/07/2007 11:09:00 PM  | 12 Voices
My new addiction 'latest' (Uttara)
Blogging and addictions .. don't they go hand in hand?? :) for lot of them it does .. Since i believe in destiny and also believe what happens is for good so blogging has done a lot of good to me as well.

And you will find how blogging has changed my life by meeting all the lovely people here, here, here and here :p


As far as addiction goes... one wants to do something new, so they go ahead and try it, once they like they get a hang of it which in due coarse becomes a habit and then they get addicted to it. Isn't it?

So in every stage one gets addicted to something or the other .. it can be right from riding on someones back as a toddler, to eating chalk as a kiddy, to being a cry baby, to having some hobbies, to smoking as a teenager, to drinking, to doping, or anything for that matter.. Its just about trying new stuff liking it and loving it so one gets addicted till he/she doesn't get bored..

So let me talk about my latest addiction.. :D (i can see all eyes open ..:p) alrightoo..

Since a long time someone used to kick my butt so that i hit the gym not for someone else but for my own good.. ( do i have to say who?? ) ..lol. I used to fall sick often, so one fine day i decided to chuck everything and joined the gym, also go regularly whether i reduce or not.. It keeps me healthy no matter what .. basically mentally than physically. I know lot of them are figure conscious. Believe me i was never. But, i know how it feels to be thin as i was never this fat/obese :(. So whats the harm in getting back to what I was 3 years back :D

I took gymming as lets try attitude.. now i like gymming and am addicted as well .. WHOAAA! I can't believe this.. Now, I'm gonna get back to what i was initially * fingers crossed* :p

If i go on with my list about addictions it is gonna be way toooo longg a post:p.. and i don't intend to come up with parts 2,3,4... lol so just to put this thing short in a nut shell and not make it long :D( prays*) :P I donno if u call them as addictions.. but here is the list :)

  • I don't expect much (very rational word) from anyone
  • I like to be independent * fingers crossed*
  • I like to put a smile on people's face... what the heck ? it doesn't cost me a penny right? I love it though :)
  • love making friends .. I can befriend within no time :) Depends on my mood :p
  • ....... and of course blogging.. even though i slack in this :p

Remember!! keep smiling always :) u won't put on weight for sure *GRINS*

Here is my fav no. from the movie "Rocky" :).. so buck up guys :D

Have a gr8 day :)


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BUFer - uttara @ 9/07/2007 10:54:00 AM  | 17 Voices
Of addictions and changes... (Ishita)
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
For me both topics are related. As of now my current addiction is blogging. Quite obvious from the sheer number of blogs I have. But before I make a mention of how blogging has changed my life, I must mention that I have another strong addiction and that is music and dance. Not any particular genre of music. Anything that appeals to me :) and dance would be the same. I would love to formally learn a dance form and maybe I will in time. So far doing the Shiamak classes last year was thoroughly enjoyable :)

Blogging to me, as Keshi mentioned in her last post here, is all about expressing myself. I've never had a dearth of friends around me. Making friends in diverse age groups, places, etc came naturally to me. Blogging was firstly to express myself and the friends made via blogging was a pleasant addition. Ever since I quit work after Vedant was born, I found myself with less time to go out and socialize. I was quite fine with being home and spending all my time with Vedant. But once he started school, I was left with time in hand and that's when blogging happened...not suddenly but gradually. I wasn't too confident of what I wrote so sharing it in a public forum kind of scared me.

Initial comments on my posts gave me such a rush and for roughly a year I was caught up in the whole blog hopping/comment leaving spree. In time, blogger friends became real...no longer virtual. In time my fascination for writing for an audience waned. My posts became more personal. I moved to a pvt. blog because I didn't think personal expressions should be out in the open for the world at large. That is my personal opinion which others may not necessarily agree with.

If I've met some wonderful people here and made some friends to cherish for a lifetime, I've also come across people who've been totally opinionated and ready to drag people down. Virtual life is much the same as our day to day existence...you win some and you lose some!

I can blog about anything and everything and I do. I didn't think I did a good job with poems or fiction but I tried my hand at those too. I still don't know if friends are being kind when they appreciate all that but once in a while when a total stranger comes and leaves a comment appreciating what I write... it does brighten up my day. Ironic isn't it? That I have more people interested in my personal jottings rather than my creative works :) ... I guess people find the whole process of knowing someone through their daily musings, a lot more fascinating...I know I do for sure :)

Blogging has made a huge difference in my life...the change is not only in the way I express myself but in the way I relate to people around me. I could share a lot of joy and fun times with everyone but I kept a lot of pain and hurt away. Blogging helped me rid some of that fear of sharing pain. Not totally but I can get myself to trust some to have the ability to understand me.

Most importantly, Blogging at BUF has taught me lot! A whole lot of good and a smattering of bad :) ... and even in the bad, there was a lot of learning to take away. The most important thing I learnt was "acceptance" - of others, of my faults and of varied opinions. And another thing I have learnt is - sometimes reacting instantaneously in a disagreement gets us to a point of no return. It gets really late to go back and undo any damage that's done! So I try now to wait till the anger ebbs before stating my point :) and oh yes, funny thing is I didn't lose it (my temper) as much before blogging :D... talk about getting expressive!

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BUFer - ishita @ 9/05/2007 06:54:00 PM  | 22 Voices
Story Of An Addict (Keshi)
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
Guys I'm addicted to Cocaine...LOL ok kidding! Cmon you all know I'm such a Music-freak. I can't live without music...so basically I'm addicted to my iPod and stereo. They are my life-support system. My other addiction is the Beach. The waves does it for me...I can be really down but when I watch the waves with my feet in the water, all my worries have suddenly been washed away. Well I'm sure you've heard enough of that addiction too :). So let's just say Music and the Beach are my highest addictions that were born with me and would most certainly die with me some day. That means, these 2 addictions will always be with me no matter what, and without them I'd be dead (and that's me in the pic pretending to be dead).

Now for a bit of information for all of us. I once did a post on this subject in my blog. Read here for an indepth take on this subject and a bizzare list of addictions that some people suffer from, such as being addicted to People, Alcohol, Gambling, Self-harm, Hate, Religion, Internet, Work, Video games etc. The truth is you may be having one of those addictions too...could be even without your own knowledge of it! Now when you read that post, don't worry too much if you have one of those addictions too. Keep in mind that for it to be a serious and unhealthy addiction, it has to dominate your daily life, be negative and harmful to you and/or others, and you have to be powerless when it comes to controlling it. So if your addiction doesn't fall within that description, then you have nothing to be worried about. Chillax ok!

Now there is another serious addiction that Keshi lives with...it's called Expressing. I'm addicted to expressing my feelings in the open, being honest with just about anyone and being who I am no matter what. Simply put I just can't hide my feelings. From my childhood, I have been a girl who expressed her heart out without fear. I remember when I was about 4yrs old, I told my dad's 30yr old friend that I wanted to marry him - yeah just like that. Another day, when I was about 3 or 4yrs old, I told my dad and friend to shutup or I'll shoot them both - cos they were making too much noise talking. Then when I was about 6yrs I went to see a doc with my dad for some tonsils issue. I told the doc "doctor if you can't really do anything about my tonsils, don't waste your time checking me...let it just go away". The doctor smiled and told me "You couldn't help saying that could you Miss.K". In school too I was very good at expressing myself and teachers always loved my work (not bragging here). So yeah, no wonder I grew up to be a blogger who writes about every feeling she has to deal with. That's why I'm addicted to blogs too :). Cos I love expressing and reading how others express their feelings about almost anything. So there you go...I'm addicted to communications of the heart, thus giving a voice to my heart.

I could only say that my addictions have been a benefit in my life so far, and that I'm richer for having them as my cravings.

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BUFer - Keshi @ 9/04/2007 09:59:00 AM  | 27 Voices
Here's to....... oops am confused!!! (Sam)
Saturday, September 1, 2007
Ah!! finally a topic that has left totally confused. Now when we talk about addiction we can be talking about so many things. It can be something as simple as chocolate (quite materialistic there!!) or something as philosophical a thing like truth. Right? So, when I sit down to jot down my addictions, it seems like I'm addicted to too many things. Hmmm..... where do I start? Childhood, teens, youth or current days?? Blimey!!!!!

Childhood:


I remember how I loved to try out weird things. Climbing tress, scaling walls, water pipes, stealing fruits from a neighbour's tree... yup!! you got it right i was addicted to being mischievous. And that's how I was growing up till I chanced upon sketching and crafts. picked them up and went after them with a vengeance. Scouts was next to follow. Gave them all up by the time I was 13. Scouts, 'coz of academics, crafts.. lack of patience, arts... still on but in a very remote manner.

Teens:

Now, was the time to pursue tennis and cricket. Started coaching in tennis, and went about it in an on and off fashion till I passed out of school. My obsession with music started during my late teens when I got approached by a friend to form a music band with me as a lead singer. Used to bunk lectures for the practice. Were on for about a year before college took us all in different directions. It was in college, that life took a different direction. Addiction was Music and sports. Somewhere along the line I had dropped fine arts... let's say ethics mattered a lot to me!! My new subject of interest was the human mind.


Youth and current days:

Well, this is were the lines blur out a lot.... Music and sports remained till I graduated. From then on its been only music, till I started blogging. The closet writer decided to come out into the open, and since then nested comfortably in front of a computer I have happily punching away my thoughts. And my latest (and most important) addiction... well.. she is seated comfortably in her office in a not so distant land, frowning at the monitor as she prepares a report and wondering when I'd call her.... and smiling at times (the reasons vary... so can't say!!)


In between, I have remained thoroughly addicted to friends. Yup!! it matters a lot to me. And the funda of living life King Size!! yeah.. no matter what you do, one should never forget to enjoy!!


My addiction is LIFE!!! I wanna live it up!!




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BUFer - Sam @ 9/01/2007 12:20:00 AM  | 12 Voices
Topic: Your addiction in life(AmitL)
Friday, August 31, 2007

Topic: Your addiction in life.

I firmly believe that addiction(of the good type only..grin) is what keeps one going in life. So, let me recount the previous addictions and the current one.

First, back in school days, I had the addictive hobby of making penpals- I made the first two penpals through the IYS(International Youth Service), one from Austria and one from Australia(Believe me, they’re still in touch- will do a post dedicated to them one of these days, since they read my blog occasionally…after asking their permission, of course..grin). ..even met the Austrian one and her husband, three years ago. Then, there were three penpals from Brazil(One is still in constant touch)- Rio De Janeiro, to be precise, then, Trinidad & Tobago, Germany(My whole circle of friends in school fell for this lady when they say her snap..hehe), a whole lot from all over India….no prizes for guessing that my best friends in those days was the postman who would bring letters, photos, small gifts, etc from these lovely people.

Second, there was DXing- that was the hobby of shortwave listening(in the days of only Bore, nee, Doordarshan for TV entertainment and no FM, either). Me and this college friend had a sort of competition between us, on who heard the maximum radio stations from around the world – there was Radio Australia, VOA(Voice Of America), Austria, Deutschewelle, Belgium, even Radio Pakistan…every spare moment, day n night, besides studies, would go in craning the neck and straining the ear, next to the ancient shortwave radio- sending reception reports to these stations, would get us what were called’ QSL cards’- greeting cards of the country, with a confirmation of your report being accurate. The report used to be in the form of a SINPO (Signal, Interference, Noise, P(I forgot what this was) and Overall score, with a brief report on the program to justify to them that we weren’t just kidding. They’d also send pennants, badges, tourist brochures of their countries and we’d dream of the , err, dreamy places.

Then, third began the addiction of reading writing to magazines and papers- LTTE(Letters To The Editor) became my craze, alongwith entering caption contests…collected quite a few useful n useless prizes on the way- like dozens of audio cassettes, pens, a tape recorder, pocket calculators(A novelty back then, when India had not gone global) to name a few. Citadel, Pune(I love that mag) invited me over to Pune to do a stint with them, in a ‘report on the reporters’ kind of article- investigated a murder, had free eats at a restaurant which they reviewed, attended a photo shoot with Rachel Reuben present, etc. (I have that on pdf, if anyone’s interested.:)) I got the nicest compliment from them in their intro to my article- it termed me ‘India’s most prolific letter writer’(Ahem!)…..even got a nice fan following and some are still friends, scattered around the world …but, then, all good things must come to an end(Though, I’ve never allowed this addiction to end), so, I had to mellow down my writing, after I came to Dubai. I still write to ‘Open Space’ (Sunday TOI), Filmfare, and a few others, but, it’s not the way the ‘addiction’ was in those days.

Fourth, after reaching Dubai, the addiction was work, for the first company I was in- first, learning the ropes about the workstyle here, then, dealing with oodles of suppliers for our project requirements…it reached a stage where I stopped taking days off- would go to work even on Fridays, from 11 AM to 4 PM, would eat, sleep, dream work…if I got up late, I’d catch the first bus at 6 AM and be in the office(I had a key)…LOL… on top of that, the Boss once told me, just after I had joined ‘Why do you smile so much? I don’t like people who smile so much- they are not serious about their work’….as they say, ek woh din tha, ek aaj ka din hai(The day I quit that job after 4.5 years)- I never smiled in front of him, in spite of him doing his best to crack jokes to make me laugh…grin grin.(I’d smile internally, but, externally, it would be the same serious face as in my intro post photo..hahaha.)

Fifth, now, of course, the addiction is blogging…the eyes and ears are always open, whether at home, in the restaurant, at work, everywhere, for topics, for humour, for incidents…and, incidentally, this is the first hobby which is still at an all-time high, even after four years. (All the others peaked at four years…perhaps because four is my lucky number?)…I already wrote the next part of this, in my post on how blogging has changed my life..:)

Then, there have been the 'continuing' addictions of good music, being in luv( I see eyes going wide here), tea, losing (n gaining..LOL) weight(Separate topic, deserves a post- have lost 14 kgs, twice), et al.

On the flip side, I have never been tempted by the real addictions- smoking, drinking, drugs.Touchwood.

Cheers, everyone, and have a great weekend.

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BUFer - AmitL @ 8/31/2007 08:48:00 PM  | 14 Voices
Addiction (Rajbir)
Okay now that the new topics r on, i'll start with the addiction of my life. Frankly speaking like any other normal human-being my addictions had changed from time to time, in other words i got seriously addicted to the priorities of my life from time to time.

Alright lets start with my very first addiction, addiction of survival. This started from the age of 12, when life took a decisive turn and it was very necessary to get on with it in order not to get lost in the oblivion and perish. Since i was very good at painting sketches and all i got a job with a hoarding contractor who had his hoardings ard the juhutara road and the beach. Used to get 25 bucks for a night...:) and my word! every penny was so bloody usefull in those days. Now when i go to that place and see those billboards i really get nostalgic...:)



Somebody in our locality saw me in a brawl and after i was done approached me and asked if i was interested in taking up the boxing. Though in our country the sport hardly has any chance and ppl dont really look upto it, but being an outlaw from within i decided to go with it, afterall now was the chance to take out all my anguish and wrath officially and in the ring. Being a natural athelete and a born southpaw it was quite an advantage in the circuit and in a time span of 4 years i got 3 state championships and 1 national championship in the game and by the time i got the nationals, i was already in the training institute to persue a dream, i let it go and started concentrating on my future afterall i already had quite a run.

The next addiction in life was to finish and finish good at what i started or shuld i say found after doing a few adventures in life. I mean before getting into that life seemed quite settled, yet there was a sort of dissatisfaction and due to a wierd incident in life, somebody proposed me the idea and i grabbed it happily and tightly. And now when i look back i really feel quite satisfied and done after all the blood and sweat shed and a feeling of accomplishment creeped in and the addiction and madness towards it felt worthwhile.


Current priority or shuld i say the the addiction in life is to be in love and with my love. Reason is that i really feel exhausted and done at times and also guilty of not being there with her when she really needed me coz of my other engagements, so now that i hv time on hand and the luxury to choose, there is nothing like it and by God i dont wanna waste these precious moments in my life right now....
Thats all for now...Hope u all dont get too bored....and before i go i'd like to share this song with u, actually its one of her fav number and i dedicate that song to her...:-)

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BUFer - southpaw @ 8/31/2007 10:06:00 AM  | 17 Voices