love ... ?

Disclaimer : Pure fiction!!

"I hate evenings alone. I hate the way my mind works when you're not around. In all these years, one would think I've reached that stage in a relationship that's not just comfortable and secure but beyond doubt and above suspicion. But, I guess not. I get restless. Old fears, unreasonable and unrelenting, play havoc with my mind.

Every assurance, every word of love forgotten...in the minutes that tick away...

It takes one moment of weakness to break someone. To break every ounce of faith. To make me the insecure person that I've become.

One fine day. One wretched phone bill and we were left shattered.

We?

No, I guess not. Not you. I was left shattered.

I meant nothing the days you walked into her house. I meant nothing when you lay down with her. I meant nothing when you slept with her.

Yet, here I am. 1 year since...

Why?

Of all the men I've been with, you knew me best. Of all the relationships I was in, I gave myself completely to this. And if my idea of perfection can be an illusion...

Why do I need any other man to prove me wrong? No one can.

They can touch me. They can't touch my soul. They can make me long. They can't make me stay. They can capture moments in my life. They cannot replace you.

And you?

I gave you a choice. You chose me. You chose to walk beside me.

I gave you a second chance? No, I gave us a second chance.

Oh! I hear the doorbell. It's pouring outside. You stand at the door drenched. Your familiar smile.

Every shred of doubt fades. You're home..."

Bee Gees - How dee...

THE BEE GEES lyrics

Just Like That…

I was bored one weekend. Saw this couple in the park outside. Known them since they were kids and below is an attempt to capture the turning point in their relationship...part real, part fiction...written purely for fun :)

"Tell me something? Where were all these pretty girls all this time? What is it about festivals that make them all so pretty? It can’t just be the make up!” Vicky sighed, lying back across the front porch stairs of his house.

Sukhi grinned watching his lost expression, “You bet it’s make up or you wouldn’t get dreamy eyed watching Sneha on any other day dude!”

“Sneha?” Vicky sat up. He looked across intently and smacked his head with his right palm, “Yaar ye sneha hai?!”.

He couldn’t believe the girl who got him dreamy eyed was the same Sneha he’d spent most of his summer vacations playing with. 6 months away for his first semester and she seemed to have transformed from a tomboy to a … a… *sigh*…a vision.

Yes but it had to be Sneha. Who else lived across the street?! But it could’ve been some friend of hers or a cousin. His mind seemed to have decided that this was anybody but her!

It’s the hair. It was styled differently? Oh! it was left open and not tied back like she usually did. And that lehenga seemed to simply make her look more divine.

Her eyes lifted. Her gaze moved up from the diyas she was lighting and she saw him staring at her. Her hand moved consciously to her dupatta, drawing it closer across her choli. She wondered if she looked stupid in this outfit. Or was it the hair?

Why was he staring?

She got up…walked across the street.

He sat up. She seemed to walk differently too. Everything seemed different. Or was it him?

“Vicky? Are u ok? You’re looking at me like you’ve seen a ghost!!” She demanded!

“Huh…uh….err…Sne..ha…” He mumbled.

“Duh! You’re freaking me out ok” She grinned. She had a feeling it wasn’t about looking stupid anymore.

“Sneh.. You wanna go some place else? I want to talk.” He heard his voice. Hang on why was he asking her this?

“Why? Jo bolna hai yehi bolo!” She looked a little confused.

“I’m going to sound crazy I know but can you fall for someone in 5 minutes?” his voice sounded vague.

“Is this a joke?”

“He’s lost it” Sukhi found his voice. He was stumped watching his best friend fumble like a 5 year old kid in front of their childhood buddy.

He looked at Sneha trying to figure out what he missed noticing about her? She looked the same old Sneha. Ok the hair was longer and let down, the lehenga was a huge contrast to the faded denims she preferred. But hell it was Sneha … “Vicky man, tu paagal ho gaya hai kya?”

Her phone buzzed.

“Shit! I have to rush. Mom’s calling.” Sneha walked off. She stopped suddenly, turned back and looked straight at Vicky. A slight smile played on her lips, “Tomorrow we’ll talk.”

Vicky stared as she walked off. He turned towards Sukhi who was shaking his head in disbelief.

Today seemed an evening just like any other and yet a whole new meaning crept into what was till now a regular friendship.

He felt reason flood back into his thoughts. Tomorrow…yes tomorrow he would talk to her. Something in him told him this wasn’t simply about changing looks or a momentary flash. It was more than that…it was about changing feelings. A whole new world of emotions opening up inside him and he knew he wanted to explore them all…

One regular evening and his life seemed to change completely…just like that!

Couting Crows - Ac...

COUNTING CROWS lyrics